I confess to you my sexuality knowing full well you disapprove.
Don’t feel so shocked, you hear about us all the time in the media. So you tell me God doesn’t approve. You are not God, that doesn’t mean you have to, besides can books lie.
Those words I just you told didn’t change me, I have been this way and always will be, there is no changing that, even if you disown me. If you think we are destroying the population because our numbers are growing stronger, you are very wrong. Our numbers are not the ones growing stronger, We Are.
And with every scream of homophobic slur, with every bruise you place on me, it feeds my strength, and increases my tolerance toward your ignorance. Because of you and all the others who hate me because of who I am, I am strong enough to consider myself to be proud of my sexuality, instead of hiding it to the world.
You cannot get rid of me, you cannot get rid of us. You cannot escape us, we are all around you.
Your GLBT friend, family member, co-worker, and neighbor
you know, i'm a newbie to this whole 'online journal' thing, but, considering i'm a bitch and like to piss and moan a lot, i figure this'll be the perfect community for me to join. so, WUSSUP ALL? yes, i'm here, no fear, get used to it. *hahaha that was gay* ANYWHO, i agree with you all, life does suck, guys can kiss my ass, and the world should really shut the f**k up before i freak out and blow something up *such as my dad.. who really deserves to die.. or barney* so, yeah. later.
Hey I'm new here, and i LOVE to bitch so this community looks good to me. ;)
So my story?
I met this guy a year older than me that goes to my school and I fell really hard for him. I was fuckin in love with that boy and I was good to him and he was such a prick when his friends were around. So one night i finally came around and dumped his sorry ass..but yeah stupid me i was still in love with him..the day after he told me there was a good chance we'd get back together after the fireworks that night. Kay, well no..that didn't happen he used me coz he wanted some and then told me all this bullshit about how we were just friends. Well two weeks later I found a good guy and we started going out..this is like early July maybe? And a few weeks ago I hear that my ex is sayin all this stuff to his friends that i moved too "fast" after we broke up, he called me a slut, and all this other bullshit. He saw me today and JESUS H CHRIST could he make it any more obvious that he was into me?!
Well..my problem is..I'm still very attracted to him and I saved these old notes he wrote me and i still like him i think..I'm just still really attracted to him and he is to me too..i dont know what to do..:\ Advice? Please..?
my name is mandy. im 20. and i don't know how i found this. but here i am. this seems like something i could really enjoy. simply because i have a lot to bitch about, especially about my "b/f"(its one of those things where he doesn't like the term b/f and g/f, but that basically what we are) and how he doesn't understand that all he has to do is say something nice, hold me, and then everything will be fine.
but nooo he starts shit, by complaining about something small, and its not like normal complaining, he gets just as mad as he would if i just took a shit in his bed or slashed his tires (which i have never and would never do) but its over little things, like not closing the shower curtain, or wanting to sleep an extra hour before i take a movie we rented back.
and its seems like he gets worse when i'm PMSing, i don't if its because i get more offended/irritated/hurt/upset at him and it just seems like its worse, but its almost like he's PMSing too! and so there he is complaining, and belittling me cuz i did something small, and i get hurt because of the way he's treating me(not because he wanted me to do something), and i'll start crying, and i don't know if any of your guys are like this, but i think most are, he gets mad that i'm crying! its like if he wouldn't have been so extreme with me in the first place i would be okay, but he made me upset! and now he's gonna get mad at me for THAT too?
so it just goes back and forth like that until the argument gets super fucking bad, and one of us usually ends up leaving, him because he wants to or me because HE WANTS ME TO. and thats what happened today!!! only this time all i did was start talking about what i want in the relationship(for him to listen, treat me like he wants me as much as he says he does, more affection, blah blah), and it opened up this huge can of worms about all the bad shit I'VE done in the past that he can't get over, even tho the shit he's done I'M supposed to get over.
and it sucks so much because i want things to be okay, he says he wants that too, but what it would take for us to get along more often, is for him to not rile up my emotions, especially durring more emotional times, and communicate in a more civil mannor, but he just won't let up off my ass sometimes, and he knows i'm PMSing because i have reminded him of the fact that i was starting my period soon and all so he can't play dumb with that one. he just doesn't seem to care about the things that matter the most to me, and to our relationship being good, sometimes.
and not that it matters to you, but i just kinda figured out that he probably feels the same way about the things that matter so much to him (i.e. my past fuck ups) but the thing is , i can't change my past, and past actions. but he can change how he is to me now and today. which will help us be okay more often.
grahhhhhhh. and that concludes my bitch-rant, that wasn't entirely pms related.
IT'S NOT BECAUSE I'M PMSING!!!
I JUST NEED SOME ATTENTION. fackin hell.
I hate when I am P.M.Sing and I get all irritated with everything. I can't help it. My dad yells at me and says that I'm nasty and ignorant. I wish he'd stop his endless bitching about me. I can't help it if I grow older and get things like periods and P.M.S. Besides, if he wore a condom back in '79, he would'nt have to deal with such a burden named Cecelia now, would he? Pssshhht. Men just don't understand what we women go through. Am I right or am I right?
Happy New Year everyone, and when I mean one i mean one person since there's only one person other than me in this community.
Anyway, I got my period Jan 1st. What a way to start the new year. Cramps, bloating and not to mention the extreme emotional bullshit i had to put myself through. I cried at nearly ever movie I watched, including Life as a House and Heart and Souls .. also for no reason, I'd cry in my room. Often I'd wish someone would shoot me in the head to put me through my misery. I've been a bitch to my family. I think my dad is most affected by it. I feel bad but I can't help it. I know it'll be over soon and thank goodness! Also, I have a ridicously heavy flow and I've gone back to using pads for the sole purpose that tampons are too expensive for me! They suck.
what is it about guys huh... when they don't understand what gurls want, they complain that gurls are so difficult to understand. when gurls tell them flat out what they want, they say that what they give is never good enough. what does it take for a gurl to get a bit of attention these days???
Up yours, world.